Thursday, December 26, 2013 '
Why, just tell me why?
why am i still doing things for you? why? the way you treat me, how u place me as a priority, how i am being your substitute? allowing you to do things not thinking for me but all for your friends? why?
i can leave my friends alone just to meet you, but you cant.
i can wait for you at home just to make sure i see you but you cant.
i must be there when ure bored, but when i am. ure not there.
i must make sure you are happy all the time, but when i am, you cant be there
tell me why am i staying? why?
am i too stupid or is this love?
Sunday, November 17, 2013 '
There is a limit to everything.
17/11/2013 (Sunday) 1.20am.
I decided to release this post as i feel that it's time to let go and it's time to face reality. it might be a painful decision the next day when im awake but as far as reality could step in, i think i should walk away.
At some point, you will realize that you have done too much for someone that the only next possible step is to stop, leave them alone, walk away. It's not like you are giving up or you shouldn't try. It's just that I've to draw the line of determination from desperation. what is truly yours would eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.
Take a step back, fucking look at myself, im only human.
I need to let go of this horrible complicated relationship you got me into and i just fucking need to live AGAIN.
Wishing you all the best.
Wednesday, March 6, 2013 '
You will make it!
Things come and go in life, and im pretty upset when i got the news that one of my good friend(colleague) is leaving the company, to be honest, i'm really really upset, like i always wine to her and complain about everything at work including my private life. but i had to understand the fact why shes leaving.
I dont really know what to tell her but in me, i just wish her all the best for her future endeavors.
PS: Good colleagues are hard to find but when u meet them, treasure them because u might not know when u will meet such honest and good people again. All the best Vanessa! I'll definitely miss your laughter and fun around in office! :)
Thursday, October 11, 2012 '
我受伤了，但我从来没有后悔过。因为在这短短的几个月里，你让我学到了爱一个人和喜欢一个人有很大的分别。真的很对不起，我从来没有尊敬过你。I'm Sorry.
You're the first girl whom i can talk about anything and everything where i dont feel awkward at all. I've come to terms that we have many differences and i dont want to make things difficult for you, i've my shortcomings but i hope you understand that i'm not perfect. Last but not least, i've to say is i really enjoyed your companion throughout this 5 months and thanks for all the memories you've given me. Thanks for being my first love.
( 13/03/2012 - 01/08/2012 )
If you like someone, you will live on your own joys and sorrows, your own self matters the most to you. If you love someone, you will live on her joys and sorrows, she matters the most to you.
I've never ever shown you that i loved you, but liked you. Till today, when i truely let go of this r/s, i'll probably learn how to love someone wholeheartily.
I love you and miss you, Janice Fong. :(
Kevan
Monday, February 20, 2012 '
At some point, you will realize that you have done too much for someone, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone, walk away. It's not like you are giving up and shouldn't try. It's just that you have draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours would eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard u try, will never be.
Tuesday, December 27, 2011 '
:)
I was really too naive to think that if i let the memories hurt me, my heart would go numb, after i reach my limit. and then i wouldn't hurt as much anymore. But in the end it didn't help at all. Don't you think that it'd be great, if memories could be formatted away like files in a computer. No, we can't
Father, i pray for your existence to be upon me once again. I pray that this camp would be an eye opener for me to feel you and to believe in you once again. Thank you lord for bringing me into the family again.
Sunday, December 25, 2011 '
Dont mess up someone feelings just because you are unsure of yours
Two months ago was the day ive been awaiting for even before i enlisted. 15/10/2011. My commissioning parade, the moment where u feel that it was your proudest moment. Many thanks to my parents and friends and my cell leaders who were there for me thoughout this period of time.
I will never forget you guys. Friendship forge during this period of time were the best.
I really appreciate the times that you were there for me.
Like what i've told you, i will never leave god. but definitely, It really pains me to leave church.
